Wednesday, October 29, 2008

complain, complain, complain

America is like Walmart. Low price, cheap goods. I'm so sick and tired of hearing people complain about their country. Really, do you realize what you have. Do you realize that you choose for it to be this way. Sure you might not have signed up for an 800 billion dollar bail out. But, you elected the people who did.
This morning on the radio some the show was having a call in about the problems and issues facing Americans. Most people have had it up to their noses with this financial crisis which I can very much understand, I'm in the same boat. Other people though are so stupid! They complain about our education system not being competitive in the global market and how we have the lowest quality of life for developed countries. Really! How great of you to notice. So what are you going to do about it?
Nobody want to face the answer that seems so obvious.
You want better education. You want better health care. You want better public services. You want the road to be drivable and not full of holes. You want the environment to be protected. Those are all fine things to want. They are also things that cost lots of money. Money that the government just doesn't have. You want it to get better? Start calling your representatives in favor of actions that raise your taxes a little and thus raise the money for these projects.
When you look at other countries and what they pay to live there you'll see. We are the Walmart of the world. You get what you pay for. If you want something better then do something about. Call people that can make the change, not your local radio station. And, if you aren't wiling to sacrifice to make it better than quit your bitchin'.

Friday, October 24, 2008

An update?

I dpn't know what I want to say. Surely there is something wtty or pleasant floating around in the depths of my mind that I could put here. Instead, I keep sitting here staring at the blank screen willing it to fill with the meaingful events of the past few weeks. Maybe bullet points would be better.

* The musical went really well. The laundry is still upstairs. We should really call in the student workers to get some of that done and put away.

* The 16th came and went. I treated myself to dinner out that night. Found out that something are never going to change. I am so glad that Katy messaged me, even though it flooded me with anger to know that he is still doing nothing!

* Amanda's bachelorette party was awesome. There are great pics floating around and I'm going to do my best to round them up and make a nice little gift for her. By the way, nearly all of the pictures are not going to be posted here.

* This week I made a new dress for my birthday. I'll probably post some of the pictures on the craft blog. I haven't updated there in ages.

* Sunday is my birthday. I'm having a small get together. It's going to be really fun I think.

*Tonight I'm going on a date. It'll be nice to be spoiled on a Friday night. These outings don't happen to often when I don't go to Orlando for the weekend so it's nice to have a special treat.

I think that about wraps it up for me. Hope everyone is doing well.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


Tomorrow I will be the stronger person. I'll get out of bed. I'll hold my head up high and I will be stronger. I'm not sure how I'll feel but I know it will be kind of weird. I'm so happy now, and I wouldn't change any of this except to say that I wish that I had done it earlier and even then it worked out just fine the way it happened. Tomorrow...

On another note....eeeek I'm so excited for this weekend!!!!!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Why My Mind Wanders

I'm not sure why my mind goes here but I wonder sometimes. I wonder why you did the things that you did. I wonder how I let my guard down so far that I couldn't see you for who you were. More than that I wonder how we got to where we were and why I never saw the warning signs. I wanted so badly to believe that everything was going to be okay. I knew in my heart that you could never be the person that I needed you to be. I knew that you were never going to get past the end of your own nose. So, tell me then why I still think of you. Why, when things are going so well for me right now do you creep back into my heart and burn my eyes with those tears? I don't ask about you. It had been months since you had crossed my mind. Then suddenly, everywhere I turned you were there. I heard stories about you from several people. I had memories that I never wanted to remember drudged from the depths of my memory. Why do people think that it's okay to do that? Why do they think that I care? Why do I care? Why? Now I am just a week from our anniversary and I want so badly to just skip the day. You'll be 24 this year and still living like a rebellious 14 year old. I don't know if you read this, a couple of people from G-Town stop by every once and awhile and you may just be one of them.

Here are some things that you might like to know:
I'm happy. Really happy.
I took the GRE and I'm working on going back to school
I'm okay. I realize now that you brought out the worst possible person in me and that you could never meet my needs.
I've found someone really awesome.
We fit like long lost puzzle pieces.
He takes very good care of me.
He brings out the best in me.
Riley is well. He's so smart now.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

This will not become a survey blog

1. When you were fourteen, who was your favorite band?
Probably something really geeky, I really don't know though
2. Do you repeat yourself often and not realize it?
Most likely, I vocalize my thoughts a lot and I know that I think the same things often
3. Are you afraid of becoming middle-aged?
Not really
4. What are seven things you couldn't live without?
Family, friends, books, music, learning, a creative outlet, words
5. What if the furthest you've traveled?
Somewhere in Europe but, I'm not working out the mileage
6. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
If I think about it really hard
7. Have you ever worked with acid during a science experiment?
8. Have you ever seen or do you ever want to see an opera? If so, which one?
I think I've seen one, but I don't really remember
9. Do you know a woman named Wanda?
No. Should I?
10. What is your favorite thing to do for fun on the weekends?
I live for Sunday's with Matthew and anything I do with him is always fun
11. Do you ever listen to songs and music in different languages?
It depends on my mood
12. Have you ever tried drugs? If so, which ones?
Sure, but then that's really none of your business is it
13. Do you like the sun or the clouds better?
I like them together, nice puffy white clouds in a bright blue sky with the sun peaking out, I'm such a 5 year old crayon drawing
14. Do you think love at first sight is really lust at first sight?
Most likely
15. What is a material possession you would have difficulty giving up?
My collection of wardrobe things, shoes, clothes, purses all of that
16. What do you really want to do right now?
Hug my boyfriend, that's so simple but he's so far away and it's only going to get worse
17. Would you rather make love or have sex?
make love
18. Name something that is full of nothing.
19. What is your favorite memory from your childhood?
I have so many, I could never just pick one
20. Would you rather have knowledge or wisdom? Or do you think the two go hand-in-hand?
I think they go hand in hand and would love to have both
21. What is your favorite thing to do when you're alone? read read
22. Have you ever donated cans to a charity for the poor?
23. At what age is the best for you to have a baby?
So far the five year plan just barely includes starting to try to have children...but then that also implies a lot of other that shows how much of a planner I am
24. When you bring a friend to hang out with one of your other friends who they don't know, do you sometimes forget to introduce them?
Sadly yes
25. Did you think the remake of the Amityville horror was better, just as good, or worse than the original?
I've never seen either
26. Do you know a guy with a name that typically is used for a girl?
Not that I know of
27. Are you religious? Do you believe in prayer?
I don't think I fit the "religious" mold but I do believe in prayer.
28. Do you have a guardian angel? If so, who is it?
My Dad's dad, but he's busy now and I haven't seen him in awhile
29. What is one thing that angers you the most when it comes to relationships?
My being so spoiled...really it drives me to the point of madness because then I expect it and that just isn't fair
30. How often do you go to the bathroom each day?
31. What three places in the world do you want to travel to?
England, Australia, Germany
32. Do you wear hats? If so, what sort of hats do you wear?
I have the worst hat head ever
33. Are you feeling any pressure right now? If so, from what?
Yes, from myself about school and if it's going to work out
34. Do you enjoy the rain?
Usually, as long as it isn't scary
35. Is there a threat of tropical disasters (hurricanes, monsoons, etc.) where you live?
Yes, how terrifying and even more so when you aren't home and have no idea what is going on at your house and you can't call anyone because no one knows and yeah...I was a nervous wreck
36. Have you ever run into a door?
Just today on my way through the dressing room today
37. What do you think of teased hair?
38. If you had the chance to skydive, would you?
Depends on a long list of things
39. When it comes to bands, do you find the singer more attractive or the guitarist?
Instrument makes no difference
40. Do you like classic cars?
41. What is the first thing you think when you see a person wearing a leather jacket?
Well first off does it fit, then what does it look like because that makes the difference between hot and ewww
42. Do you find dreadlocks sexy or disgusting?
43. If you had the power to freeze time, what would you do with that power?
mmmmm...I could think of so much
44. What is your life motto?
I plan, I don't have a motto
45. What color are your toenails painted?
Orange, in the spirit of fall and my most favorite holiday
46. Do you listen to orchestra tributes to your favorite band?
ummm, no
47. When was the last time you cried? What was the reason? Did you feel ridiculous for crying afterwards?
Not to long ago, I'm sure it was about having to leave and no I did not feel ridiculous
48. Would you consider yourself more of a leader or a follower?
Depends on the group
49. Do you find it annoying when someone is too sarcastic?
I am best friends with the president of the sarcasm society of the world, I only find it annoying when people take the sarcastic thing seriously
50. What do you do to cure your headaches?
Take some non-aspirin, un-coated pain reliever and drink loads of water
51. Have you ever thought of running away?
No, not really
52. Do you own diamond jewelry? Yes, but I have no earthly idea what to do with it because it meant something once and now I just have it and I don't want to wear it in any form really but I don't want to sell it either because then whatever I buy will be tainted by the memory so for now it sits in the safety deposit box
53. Have you ever dated the same person more than once? Did you regret it afterwards?
Yes, when I was in high school and that never ended well
54. Have you ever ridden a horse?
55. Has anyone ever called you a "bitch." Was it deserved?
Yes and probably sometimes deserved and sometimes not
56. Were you scared the first time you drove?
57. Do you eat your apples with the skin still on or do you peel it off?
I do my best to not eat apples unless they are in pie
58. Name five of your obsessions:
Books, Music, Handbags (made or bought), Clothes, Shoes
59. Have you ever shot a gun?
60. Do you like rap/hip-hop music? If so, do you like the beats or the lyrics better?
Not really
61. What is a lie you've told that made you feel bad after telling it?
Why would I call myself out?
62. Have you ever watched the sun rise?
63. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a pool?
I'll only really swim where I can see the bottom
64. When did you learn how to ride a bike? Who taught you?
I was young like 5 or six and I wasn't allowed to go off the street that we lived on, my Daddy of course
65. Do you believe in aliens?
66. Do you know a homophobe? Are you friends with them?
A few, I think I might be friends with one and that scares me a little bit
67. Do you think polygamy should be legal?
Not after reading The 19th Wife, even if it was fiction I could imagine that it could be worse than that
68. When you wake up, do you hear birds chirping?
Not usually
69. Have you ever seen an animal eat another animal? On TV or in real life?
In real life
70. Have you ever uttered the phrase, "Bitch, please?" Why'd you say it?
I don't really know for sure, If I did I was probably being funny in the moment
71. Are you bitter about anything?
I try not to be but sometimes it creeps up before I can catch it
72. What do you think of brown belts with black shoes?
People come on just buy two belts already!!!!
73. What is the craziest hairstyle or haircut you have ever seen?
I've seen some pretty bad ones, we'll leave it at that
74. Have you ever got a blister? If so, where did you get it from?
I have had them in lots of places for ex. on my hand from bowling or that one time I tried to steam my skin off with the deep fryer and on my feet from shoes of course
75. What color blush do you wear?
A pretty pink one, when I' in the mood for blush
76. Do you believe every person was put on this earth for a pre-destined reason or do you believe that you create your destiny through your actions?
I think that pre-destination is a factor but I also think the path you choose has a lot to do with how things turn out for you and that in the end your choices define who you become
77. Is there a person who used to make you happy that you can no longer stand? If so, who is it?
Yes, Benjamin
78. Would you find deep-sea fishing exciting?
Probably not
79. Do you think men are complicated or simple?
I think that everyone is complicated, I think that men are easier to read based on my experiences
80. Would you rather date a bad boy or a nice boy? Why?
A nice boy, because a bad boy would get on my nerves
81. Have you ever had a nervous breakdown?
Not like a seek medical attention breakdown but I have had days where nothing went right and I ended up screaming and crying and sobbing and having a panic attack and all that fun stuff
82. Have you ever stepped on glass? Did you need stitches?
yes, no