doors, doors, doors

The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.

-Flora Whittemore

To often in my life I have heard metaphors about doors. You know the ones about closed doors and open windows or rather another opened door. I never cared much for them because they don't offer an opportunity for you to take responsibility for why the door closed. I love this quote because it gives ownership of the action. I have allowed doors to close that maybe, I should have kept open. I have allowed myself to stand screaming at a closed door. I have learned from those mistakes. For once I feel like I opened the right door, at just the right moment. Even though things are less stable than I would like at the moment everything is just fine. Now, I only have to decide which door is next. At least Maxwell Smart only has to walk down the hallway, there isn't any choice in which door is next.

Love You With All My Heart

I can feel you watchin', I can feel your eyes on me

I can hear you whisper and I just get so weak

But I'm a little bit scared, it's been a long time

Since I let my guard down and let someone inside

You don't need to wonder, 'cause tonight you'll get it all

When the night closes in, I'm gonna pull you so close

Hold you so tight, gonna let it all go

And you can do what you want, you can take me right here

'Cause I knew from the start I was gonna love you with all my heart

You take my hand now, and I'm ready to begin

Though it makes me crazy when your fingers touch my skin

And I know what you want and you know what I need

There's no reason to pretend that we don't know what this means

When the night closes in, I'm gonna pull you so close

Hold you so tight, gonna let it all go

And you can do what you want, you can take me right here

'Cause I knew from the start I was gonna love you with all my heart

I'm gonna rock you, baby

And take away your maybe

And you can rest here in these open arms

When the night closes in, I'm gonna pull you so close

Hold you so tight, gonna let it all go

And you can do what you want, you can take me right here

'Cause I knew from the start I was gonna love you with all my heart

I was gonna love you with all my heart

I was gonna love you with all my heart

I can feel you watchin', I can feel your eyes on me

Sara Evans

Love

as defined by urbandictioanry.com

The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone.


Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.


This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa.


It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them.


Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.


One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love. -Sophocles

To much to think about...

Today is a weird kind of day. Everything is really calm. The shop is cleaned up and I'm just hanging out at work waiting for the Tiffany to get here to do laundry. This kind of calm inspires me to think about the awesomeness of everything that I have. So often I am prone to taking my life for granted or complaining about how hard it is but, it's days like these that I am thankful for everything. Things are pretty easy for me and I am more than grateful for that.

Tonight, Matthew is coming to see the show. I'm excited about that. Tomorrow will be two months of really awesome times with him. That sounds so middle school but it's so true. He inspires me to keep moving forward and I'm glad that I have his hand to hold through the scary stuff.

Coming up next week is the Second Annual Slip N' Slide Fun Party. Perhaps pictures will be in order!

change

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.

-Victor Frankl

So many times I have struggled with change, thrown myself into and pulled back at the last second but nothing rings more true than the way I have grown through change.

Wonder...

wonder, wonder, wonder...what's in a wonder ball!

So, today has been a strange day and I'm not sure that tomorrow is going to get much better. Lots of smaller things to finish up tomorrow and then the show opens. I can't wait to be rid of the stress, but I'm proud of myself for still managing to get home every day this week and not breaking out with stress eczema between my fingers or a nasty cold sore, although as soon as I write that both will afflict me I'm sure!

I'm headed home to play with my puppy, becuase I feel like he's been neglected over the last week.

Yay...46 Hours and counting!!!!! I miss you

i carry your heart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)

i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

-ee cummings