How to be Happy

Sometimes I'm amazed at how easy it is to be happy.
I don't have to struggle with it, I just think of all the wonderful things in my life.
Maybe it's easier now that the people that I work with are so happy, so I don't feel like I'm rubbing my happiness in their faces.
Maybe I'm just floating along in a cloud of imaginary, fairy tale life and the grey cloud of rain that is real life is coming one day.
At any rate, I don't really care because,
for now, today until I don't know when,
I'm really happy.

A New Favorite

Rascal Flatts

Here

There's a place I've been lookin' for

That took me in and out of buildings

Behind windows, walls, and doors

And I thought I found it

Couple times, even settled down

And I'd hang around just long enough

To find my way back out

I know now the place that I was trying to reach

Was you, right here in front of me

And I wouldn't change a thing

I'd walk right back through the rain

Back to every broken heart

On the day that it was breakin'

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here, right here

It's amazing what I let my heart go through

To get me where it got me

In this moment here with you

And it passed me by

God knows how many times

I was so caught up in holding

What I never thought I'd find

I know now, there's a million roads I had to take

To get me in your arms this way

And I wouldn't change a thing

I'd walk right back through the rain

Back to every broken heart

On the day that it was breakin'

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here

In a love I never thought I'd get to get to - here

And if thats the road

God made me take to be with you

And I wouldn't change a thing

I'd walk right back through the rain

Back to every broken heart

On the day that it was breakin'

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here, right here

Oh, baby - Ooo

Oh, got me here

Scared...or just plain crazy

Sometimes things in my mind get really out of control. If you know me, you know this means being either really grumpy and vocal about it or really closed off and quite about it. Neither of those options is particularly good for anyone but that's just how it is.

Lately, I feel really overwhelmed. Things are at a really good place right now. I shouldn't feel overwhelmed. Nearly everything is perfect. The job is good, great really. I'm healthy, I'm loved, everyone I know is doing okay. So, why am I overwhelmed...

I finally got the courage to send in my application for grad school. They sent me back a few emails and I am officially in their system and that's pretty darn cool. I've been having terrible mixed feelings about this whole thing. In Feb. I was bored, and mad and tired of being talked to like I was dirt on the floor by certain people. School seemed like an AWESOME idea. Then...things got really good here. I pulled out of the funk that I was in and the proverbial sun came out.

Now, I think back to how hard it was to move away from my family the first time. I just talked my sister through this mess in August. I don't want to admit that I'm not strong enough to do it again so I keep hoping that as it comes closer I feel better about it. I promised myself that I would do everything I can to make it to grad school. But, if I wasn't excited when I started to hear back that it wasn't the right place for me. I can't tell you how excited I was when I opened my email and had received the info back from LSU. I guess for now we'll go with it's still what I want to do.

Things are changing here...FAST. Some cool things are happening at work. Going to school now is a good thing, probably the best thing that I can do for myself. Hopefully...maybe...crossing my fingers I'll be able to come back here.

I find this whole circle of events funny. I wanted so badly to leave after high school. It was hard but I made it and made lifelong friendships in the process. Then, I wanted so badly not to come back. Now I'm back and even though I'll have to leave for a bit I'm sort of excited at the prospect of being able to come back.

So much going on, so much to think about. I'm glad that I've been given the gift of being able to multi-task.

Pamela Joyce

Re:Birthday Photos

Me and B-day Cake

aparently cutting cake takes major consentration

"Are you really sure that you want all of that?"

My dad's face here is priceless!

Yay, pictures of cake!! Hope everyone has a delightful weekend!

Pamela

complain, complain, complain

America is like Walmart. Low price, cheap goods. I'm so sick and tired of hearing people complain about their country. Really, do you realize what you have. Do you realize that you choose for it to be this way. Sure you might not have signed up for an 800 billion dollar bail out. But, you elected the people who did.
This morning on the radio some the show was having a call in about the problems and issues facing Americans. Most people have had it up to their noses with this financial crisis which I can very much understand, I'm in the same boat. Other people though are so stupid! They complain about our education system not being competitive in the global market and how we have the lowest quality of life for developed countries. Really! How great of you to notice. So what are you going to do about it?
Nobody want to face the answer that seems so obvious.
You want better education. You want better health care. You want better public services. You want the road to be drivable and not full of holes. You want the environment to be protected. Those are all fine things to want. They are also things that cost lots of money. Money that the government just doesn't have. You want it to get better? Start calling your representatives in favor of actions that raise your taxes a little and thus raise the money for these projects.
When you look at other countries and what they pay to live there you'll see. We are the Walmart of the world. You get what you pay for. If you want something better then do something about. Call people that can make the change, not your local radio station. And, if you aren't wiling to sacrifice to make it better than quit your bitchin'.

An update?

I dpn't know what I want to say. Surely there is something wtty or pleasant floating around in the depths of my mind that I could put here. Instead, I keep sitting here staring at the blank screen willing it to fill with the meaingful events of the past few weeks. Maybe bullet points would be better.

* The musical went really well. The laundry is still upstairs. We should really call in the student workers to get some of that done and put away.

* The 16th came and went. I treated myself to dinner out that night. Found out that something are never going to change. I am so glad that Katy messaged me, even though it flooded me with anger to know that he is still doing nothing!

* Amanda's bachelorette party was awesome. There are great pics floating around and I'm going to do my best to round them up and make a nice little gift for her. By the way, nearly all of the pictures are not going to be posted here.

* This week I made a new dress for my birthday. I'll probably post some of the pictures on the craft blog. I haven't updated there in ages.

* Sunday is my birthday. I'm having a small get together. It's going to be really fun I think.

*Tonight I'm going on a date. It'll be nice to be spoiled on a Friday night. These outings don't happen to often when I don't go to Orlando for the weekend so it's nice to have a special treat.

I think that about wraps it up for me. Hope everyone is doing well.

Stronger

Tomorrow I will be the stronger person. I'll get out of bed. I'll hold my head up high and I will be stronger. I'm not sure how I'll feel but I know it will be kind of weird. I'm so happy now, and I wouldn't change any of this except to say that I wish that I had done it earlier and even then it worked out just fine the way it happened. Tomorrow...

On another note....eeeek I'm so excited for this weekend!!!!!