A survery of sorts

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people right now
1. I wish you could know how affraid I am, I know that you would calm my fears but I just wish you could understand my fear
2. I am so proud of everything that you have done, I miss you but I don't want you to come home becuase this is good for you
3. I wish that I lived closer to you and I'm sorry that you are going through all that CRAP
4. If you are happy, truely happy, then I'm happy for you and I'm glad that somehow things turned around for you two
5. I know that you are hurting, I wish I was there to cuddle you and cry with you
6. Thank you for everything that you have given me, I am who I am today becuase of you
7. I wish that you would wise up, you are so much smarter than this life that you are leading
8. You have five years before you get grandkids...I wish you would shape up so that you'll be here for them
9. I'm going to miss you and the antics of this place, I can't thank yo enough for everything that you have taught me
10. You are a prick who has done nothing but take advantage of the people who love you and I hope one day you'll realize what you have done and change who you are.

Nine things about myself
1. I love a boy that loves ME back for the first time ever
2. I have a puppy that is the center of my world for now
3. I can debate almost anything, even if I don't believe in the cause
4. I have made more bad decisions than I care to admit to but, I am stronger for being allowed to fall flat on my face
5. I love clothes and fashion and color but, I almost never buy anything in the heart of the season
6. I'm slow at math but secretly love how it works
7. I am loaning 5 formal dresses that have never been worn right out of my closet and you know what there are at least 10 more where those came from
8. I love to shop, especially for other people and watch them in wonder as they discover that you don't have to wear the same old things to feel comfortable
9. I have a stack of books that I want to read so badly that I am tempted to start them all at the same time.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Be honest
2. Have a plan for the direction of your life
3. Be the cuddley, holding hand type of person
4. Feed me
5. Talk to me about things I don't know about in a way that I will understand but won't make me feel like you are trying to explain astrophysics to a five year old
6. Have convictions/strong opinons about things that matter to you
7. Take care of yourself and smell yummy
8. Get along with my friends and family becuase they are an extention of me

Seven things that cross my mind a lot
1. My five year plan
2. Grad school and affording it
3. What's for dinner/lunch?
4. How many hours until I get to see him again
5. What are we doing at work today?
6. Can I make a list for that
7. How everyone that I know is doing

Six things that I do before I fall asleep
1. Put on my PJs
2. Brush my teeth
3. Double check all the locks on the doors
4. Fold the blanket down at the foot of my bed
5. Set the alarm
6. Call Matthew to say goodnight if we aren't already on the phone

Five people who mean a lot to me
1. My Mom and Daddy
2. Penny
3. Matthew
4. Amanda, Jen, Jen, Katy, Lizzy
5. Lynnsey

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. Blue Jeans
2. Pink Polo
3. Cirque zip hoodie
4. Sneakers

Three songs/artists that I listen to often
1. Jessica Simpson, Do you Know and Your My Sunday
2. Keith Urban
3. Anything on the radio

Two things that I want to do before I die
1. Have and raise children
2. Travel to the rest of the world

One confession
I will always hate to be wrong, but I'll always say I'm sorry.