ready or not

there are things that I'm not ready to tell

feelings I'm not ready to feel

my heart jumps when you cross my mind

you are the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me

I just don't want to trip

because I will fall

and the landing will hurt

I'm not prepared for what you do to me

this is surreal

like a fairytale

swept off my feet, as if my heart had wings

how often we blame the wrong party

but how do I trust that this won't hurt

like it has every other time

this is the door that's closed

that I'm not really ready to open

especially on day 48

but, where does it go from here

if I just keep holding on to this

-pamela joyce