mmmm, I am in love with this sad song

"You Had Time"
how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time
and you had time
you are a china shop
and I am a bull
you are really good food
and I am full
I guess everything is timing
I guess everything's been said
so I am coming home with an empty head
you'll say did they love you or what
I'll say they love what I do
the only one who really loves me is you
and you'll say girl did you kick some butt
and I'll say I don't really remember
but my fingers are sore
and my voice is too
you'll say it's really good to see you
you'll say I missed you horribly
you'll say let me carry that
give that to me
and you will take the heavy stuff
and you will drive the car
and I'll look out the window making jokes
about the way things are
how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time
and you had time

Today, I am alone

Christmas break has officially sarted at school. All of the faculty and students are gone. For some stupid reason I have to hang around here until next week. I'm not coming to work tomorrow. It makes me depressed and I don't like feeling that way. So my boss is gone to the cold country. Okay really she's out on a boat this afternoon...I can't tell you how jealous I am. Although I would just end up sun burnned and miserable. Maybe I'm not so jealous. At any rate, tomorrow she heads off to the cold country and I can't help but want to go to. I'll be headed north after Christmas and I must say that I can not wait!!!!!

I have major present issues going on right now. I'm having a bit of a brain cramp and can't think of anything supper cool to give to my nephews or there parents, and lets not talk about my friends here. So, while my family Christmas shopping is done, I am not done shopping in the least way.

In other news, the world is good for me right now. Things are good with Ben's job and the puppy. He hates wearing clothes, but he is just so darn cute when he does where them. Yeah I'm one of those puppy parents. I don't make him do it often and it may be the ticket to a calm Christmas at my house becuase when you but the clothes on him he just lays down and chills. Yeah I know that's mean but it isn't hurting him and it is so darn cute.

I decided today to invite my brother to my house for Christmas. He really messed up awhile ago and I thought I might never forgive him, but not forgiving him is only hurting me and I'm ready to move on. He is too, as he has been making leaps and bounds to solid, contributing member of society. So, I hope he comes, and I hope he bring shis puppy Daisey. That would make my sister's holiday for sure.

Okay So I guess I should get busy on the rest of my to do list for today.

Much Love

I guess I just don't get it

I don't understand what the big deal is with this argument on the radio this morning. McDonalds is offering a free Happy Meal to those who achieve good grades on their report card. There is a big stink going on about how that's not fair to parents who don't allow their children to eat at McDonalds. Oh, for heavens sake! Get over yourselves. If you don't eat at McDonalds offer a similar reward to your child or just say, I'm sorry but we don't eat there and move on. Will there be a fit...most likely, will they get over it...yes definitely. Geez, don't make a stink and take away that reward from children who's parents would allow them to use their coupon.

Onto other news, Oprah is joining the campaign trail to support Obama. Really, she is putting her name on a candidate who has clearly shown potential, but has also demonstrated that he really doesn't have the political experience yet. Way to go Oprah! I honestly believe that her support is a truly dangerous thing, she can sway public opinion. Do we really want a president with only minimal political experience?

Books and the like

So, I discovered this really cool thing, well rather I stole Lynnsey's book and played with it and now I can make books. Yeah I know, one more reason to buy paper but hey, they are supper cute and will make great stocking stuffers.

I am so proud of myself.
I know I haven't written lately but it's been hectic.

My house is CLEAN!!!!! It is so nice to not have to deal with a pile of crap when I get home. The trick will be not lettting it get out of control again. If you know me, you know that that is a challenge.

Christmas with my family is at my house this year. So, I have my tree up and decorated, outside decorations up, guest room looking very inviting and my office actually looks like an office/ workroom.

I love Christmas, I love it so much, even if it is 80 degrees and doesn't really feel much like Christmas.

Okay...off to figure out the end of the semester and a to do list for tomorrow!!!

Holy Cow only 8 more days of work before the holiday!!!!!!!!!! Yipee

A mixed up gift

I'm dreaming of
Suzy Snowflake
Tap tap tapping on my
winter wonderland
please have snow and mistletoe
casue, Santa Claus is coming to town


He He He...I love Christmas music. Even when it is all jumbled up!


I'm so proud I did every lick of laundry in my house last night, so now I just have some cleaning to do and then I'll be all set for the holidays! How exciting!

A Second Job

Applying for a second job tonight. It sounds like fun. I always wanted to be one of the people who gave out samples. Sounds like it's going to be a good time. Now I just have to find my social security card. EEEk....no clue where that is

It hurts

ache
dull and pulsing
where there should be joy
breaking
how do we fix it
is there a way
ache
it hurts
and I don't know what to do