Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Can't Take My Eyes Off You

I know that the bridges that I’ve burned
Along the way
Have left me with these walls and these scars
That won’t go away
And opening up has always been the hardest thing
Until you came
So lay here beside me just hold me and don’t let go
This feelin’ I’m feelin’ is somethin’ I’ve never known
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
I love when you tell me that I’m pretty
When I just wake up
And I love how you tease me when I’m moody
But it’s never too much
I’m falling fast but the truth is I’m not scared at all
You climbed my walls
So lay here beside me just hold me and don’t let go
This feelin’ I’m feelin’ is somethin’ I’ve never known
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
Off you
Off you
So lay here beside me just hold me and don’t let go
This feelin’ I’m feelin’ is somethin’ I’ve never known
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
And I just can’t take my eyes off you
Lady Antebellum

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Runaway Bride

So, I was watching Runaway Bride last night and I couldn't help but see that there are definite similarities. Well, for the exception that I don't ever make it to the wedding. Always giving my heart out and trying to be something that I'm not and well, that hasn't worked out very well at all.

Starting in February I made a fresh start. I promised to be just me, take it or leave it. Through my past I've learned that some people bring out the worst in you. I promised that if I started to see that happen I would change the situation. So far, I'm happier than I have been in ages because there aren't any knock down drag out fights.

Back to Runaway Bride to close out this entry.
my favorite quote from the whole movie:

Ike Graham: [on the perfect proposal] Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me.

Every time Richard Gere delivers this line I tear up a little bit.

Friday, April 25, 2008

yipeee

we could have met at anytime
we didn't
and I can't say how thankful I am for that

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

... <3

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
Yes theres a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too
I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
Yes theres a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too
Because oh because
I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you, I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
All of the while, I never knew
All of the while , all of the while
It was you
-landon pigg

in the morning light

last night, you put my heart at ease. the truth is, i worry that this is on a run away course for disaster. then, you confide your fear...even if it was only temporary, and i realize we share so many similar thoughts. it seems to me that every time these feelings are so different, so cliche to say i've never been here but so true. in you i put my trust, because i know that you won't abuse it. i'll let go of this fear and let it sink. when i'm with you i remember how to swim, so being in over my head just isn't the problem that i thought it might be. let it go where it will go, the promise for a new direction in my life hasn't failed me yet; i don't have the right to question it now.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

ready or not

there are things that I'm not ready to tell
feelings I'm not ready to feel
my heart jumps when you cross my mind
you are the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me
I just don't want to trip
because I will fall
and the landing will hurt
I'm not prepared for what you do to me
this is surreal
like a fairytale
swept off my feet, as if my heart had wings
how often we blame the wrong party
but how do I trust that this won't hurt
like it has every other time
this is the door that's closed
that I'm not really ready to open
especially on day 48
but, where does it go from here
if I just keep holding on to this
-pamela joyce

Monday, April 21, 2008

The Way I Am

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.

And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.

Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.

And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.

Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.

And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
-Ingrid Michaelson

Saturday, April 19, 2008

all i can do is smile

Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you
Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
If you're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you


I never knew that simple pleasures could be so enjoyable. Who knew that hours could pass so quickly? I had forgotten how to be this happy, how to just let everything else go and be in the moment. I have so enjoyed every moment with you.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

love at first listen

so...I think I just fell head over heels in love with this song. I went out and found her on you tube and listened to some of her other music and she is so awesome.

Say it Again
Marie Digby


The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again (x9)

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

Ohhh...Ohhhhhh


P.S. It feels really good to be able to listen to sappy music again without wanting to choke something.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

twitterpated

twitterpated

An enjoyable disorder characterized by feelings of excitement, anticipation, high hopes, recent memories of interludes, giddiness, and physical overstimulation which occur simultaneously when experiencing a new love. These feelings take over without warning, usually at odd times (such as at a check-out line), with or without the partner present, and make it difficult to concentrate on anything but romance. They interfere with work and safe driving, but should be experienced at least once in every person's lifetime.

*this definition care of urban dictionary.

When I lived with Liz we used to joke about this. Everytime I would get excited about anything she'd say "dont go gettin all twitterpated." So I'm so excited about this weekend that it made me think of those first days of spring when I was in school. You all know the ones. For me it was seeing everyone out and about. Students laying in the Ravine and reading or playing roudy games of frisbee or catch. The feeling of "twittwerpation" in the air, even if it was just feeling the lust that spring brings out in the best of young folks.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

:)

There is something so simple in the love of a dog. He is there when I get home, ready to forgive me for being late. He can tell when I need to be loved, jumping up and giving me puppy hugs. I taught him how to do this and now when I say hug he'll jump up in my lap, put his paws on my shoulders and lay his head on my chest. Sometimes he'll lay like this for hours, just content to be there. He is protective, never letting anyone he doesn't know get to close. There something so comforting about having him there. I'll never be alone when he's there and that makes me smile.

Monday, April 7, 2008

Love

how do you define love.is it in the smell of clean laundry.is it deeper than that.i will tell you that it's in the sigh of my puppy.the exhiliration of opening my door to a clean house.the thrill of the knock at my door.never knowing what you are thinking.the look in the eyes of people as you defy there expectation.the glory of success.the joy that i share with my family.understanding me and the way to my heart.love is finding a friend that always remembers the things that are important.love is knowing what is important.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Taking Chances

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.
You don't know about my past, and I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,
But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world.

to think

this is my place to think out loud...I just htought I would preface that before writing this stuff down.

I noticed today that you changed your profile status on myspace. I don't recall having a conversation with you about said status. More over I don't know how to tell you that I'm not ready. I don't even know you! Oh, and if your status has nothing to do with me...I am throughly confused. I am not about to go on a date with someone who is of your status if you aren't talking about me. So, this is vague and maybe there are no names and maybe you won't get it but if you do...please don't make you me tell you that I'm not your girlfriend and that I didn't plan on that sort of thing until I at least got to know you a little better. I like you, I do but I'm not ready for that sort of commitment. I want to not go there for awhile. I'm sorry if you feel like I lead you on in some way.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

strange

it feels strange to talk to you
like I'm breaking all the rules
you'll never convince me
that you don't care
that you were worried about me
I think you were scared of your own
breaking and falling to pieces
but you gave up
and now you'll never know
what could have been
and yet...somehow
after all that we went through
not that it was tough
or even big stuff
it feels strange to talk to you

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

holy cow it's april

The world is moving to fast for me. The days blur into weeks that blur into months and before you can blink it's the first of April and I haven't even had time to breathe. Spring break was wonderful to say the least. I relaxed and had a good time and I cleaned my house and managed to make my office function rather than be a dumping ground for all the stuff in my life. I visited LSU and fell in love. Now I just have to figure out how I am going to afford to go. It's funny to think that I'm okay with completely uprooting my life again. I am happy here, I am settled and I like it but for some reason I crave more. I miss going to school. I miss that sort of interface. I am not complete sure how this whole situation is going to work out. I have met so many people in the past couple of months and have made new friends and now I have to be okay with just leaving that all behind. I suppose that if they are really my friends then it will all be okay. I'm looking forward to what life is throwing at me. Sometime you have to duck and sometimes you have to stand up and catch the ball. We'll see what happens.



smile, because the whole world is watching
hide your heart
hold on tight
dance with your arms wide open
sing, even if you are out of tune
play the game
hold your head up high
smile, because the whole world it waiting
for you to fail